sheeshh..yess..its rainy season again..and for those of you who have been following my blog..since the old days..haha..you'll know how much i hate this weather..ugh..
its monday..and i'm feeling uber lethargic and i'm here in my uni's library..i'm feeling soooo sleepyyy...i just reaaaly dont like this feeling..blahhh..*pause*
okay now i'm in the lecture hall and i found out that there's a test..heh..err..or at least i think there is..its written on the white board "TEST - design and sociology"...lol..
besides the fact that i'm probably screwed for not knowing that there's a test today..*pause*
okay! i'm done with the test, breezed through it..it wasnt thaatt hard i guess..haha..
ok anyways..i dun have pictures to post, but there's one thing at the back of my mind when i was walking down the hallways to the lecture theather..it was regarding last saturday's devotion that shared in ccsm..no.its not really about the devotion, but it was about what caught my attention when Ben introduced me, he called me a "rocker", and when i said "dont call me that la", he called me a "skater boy", and then "emo rock".
i mean its nothing, i dont really mind being called those names..cuz the fact is probably, i am all these things..but the thought here is, are we really what people label us?
or is there a different kind of impression that we want people to see us?
just a thought for us christians, what we should always keep in mind is that no matter how we portray ourselves to the world, we as christians are always representing the image of God.
And as a rep for God, we have no choice but to be the best for God, we're living as a reflection of God..and everyperson who doesnt know God will have to see God in us..its not only our duty to just bring our non-believer friends to church but to let them experience God through our lives.
Thats how they'll know that God is real and God is working and alive in this world without hope.
I know, as i read back on what i typed..it seems really hard..and such a BIG responsibility for us to carry. Now, i may not always be oh so Godly, infact shamefully, i'm not most of the time. But i'm reminding myself that i need to keep trying and keep relying on God to help and change me.
This brings me to how being genuine is also important, no point in us faking it. Just putting on a mask of righteousness and live out that fake identity that we have set for ourselves but to be human in trying to be a person that reflects God. No one is perfect, but God is. So as we continue to die to ourselves daily, rely on God. Tho it may seem like its super hard and in days or even weeks or months we've not really progressed anywhere..keep on trying..God never gives up on us. So we shouldnt either.
OKay, it may seem like alot. But i'm just typing out what i feel..cuz there's nothing better than to try and not move back than to not try at all and keep falling back.