Back to the norm..

Well its finally normal again...classes are now normal..

but i really praise God cuz the lecturers are really nice and friendly..=)

so yeah..its been a while since i blogged..got alot of conference stuff to do..and finally yesterday

i finished most of the work thats to be done..=)

umm..i'll try and see if i can post the video on youtube=)

i'm chilling at the plaza until its time to go to teach in hartamas..i'm soooo tired..

thank you for those who were concerned about me the last few days...

it was tough..but yeah la=) it all works out when you depend on God!=)

Moving For The Sake Of Motion..

Someone please turn the lights back on,

I've been wandering here for days,

disconnected, and in search for new air to breathe in

I don't think I can fix this

Don't think I could change

But that's the problem

We never speak to Him

Our closing walls have caged us in

And I can't quite remember

This was the first time I didn't say enough

This was the only time I kept it close enough

Brace yourself!

They're not waking up

Oh, my God,I hate the me that I've become,

This needy useless forgetting one

Truthfully I can't be the me that I've washed up to be

Don't stop breathing

The walls have just begun to spin

Just let the water calm you this time

It's all around you,

just open your eyes and take a look

It will never kill you; not this time

It's all around you

We're surrounded for all I care

Brace yourself right now

Lights out random breathing

I can't keep swimming,

can't keep my head up

In Regards To Myself

Brian..
Its..over..wake up..

its over.

Running with a heavy heart..

Have you ever felt cheated and felt like a being played by someone?
it sucks..
and somehow it makes you see that everything you've owned up till this point in time was a lie.
its all a lie..and that you've been trying so hard to lie to yourself..telling yourself that its all good..its all fine..

i'm broken..

i'm gone..

i'm sick..

i'm tired..

i want answers..

Starting Uni..

Yes people!

A new semester is starting!

okay i'm currently in my uni and its like darn early..i'm like one hour early..heh..thats cuz i sent my mum to work..being the good son that i am(heh)but seriously, i find it a pleasure to send people around..and this can be a ministry too!well i'm glad la..i know it makes mum happy..haha

anyways..its so darn early..that its so darn empty!

haha...look at it!!gila empty..i'm sitting at the "plaza" and i guess most people walking by think i'm crazy..haha...morning morning blog..eksyen..haha

well this is a new beginning..i hope i can really practice what i've learned throughout the holidays..in uni...seriously bring God into this place..so many people need Him!

i've been on an emo streak also nowadays..but i know i need to really give everything to God..its so so easy to worry all by yourself you know..but i choose to give this up to God..and the only way to doing that is not by listening to emo songs..mope around..but..to praise God!I will praise Him even the night!(which means i'll praise God even when i'm at the biggest suckfest in my life) its really really tough..but i'm trying..trying..

haha...okay yess..yess..even in this moment i can cam whore..but come on la..i'm trying to cheer myself up..now i know how bad i look..meh...oh well... NEW SEMESTER HERE I COME!!

Louis Vuitton Opening!!!

Heya!

okay its old news..but its time to post about the grand opening of the Louis Vuitton in KLCC..

and i was there as the official photographer!!!hahaha..err..well..sort of laa..

Azalea was in charge of the reception me and Ian were incharge of taking pictures!using the polaroid camera's that they gave us..we also met two new friends! Alya and Daniel!

two super cool people!haha..and i also found out that Daniel is one year my senior..he just graduated doing advertising in Lim Kok Wing!haha..small world!

And its sorta sad also..cuz i realised that really..the rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer..i mean if you can like spend 4k on a handbag..then you'd have to be pretty darn rich right?
and i'm like picturing now the poor people in ethiopia..starving for food and also starving for God..and i also see these rich people that has this same emptiness and longing for God in them, but they just dont realise it..its like you come out in life..and you work your way up and its ALL the way up the corporate ladder..and its somehow never enough?

I mean i'm not one to say..but look at the things that i have..everytime i get something i'll want more..its like neverending ey?and i guess it'll just be the same IF i get uber rich and succesful one day..I'll be empty and purposeless if i dont have God in my life..and this just shows that EVERYONE needs salvation..regardless who you are..

well peeps..just a thought for you guys to think about la..how are we impacting our generation?other people might not be able to reach the people that you can reach..so are you doing something about it?=)

anyways, pictures!

(warning! alot of pictures!)

Azalea and Alya, both using the LV bags for the evening!haha..no they didnt get to take it back!Its to hold the LV polaroid sleeves!haha
Ian's test shot!ahaha..i used him as a lighting test..
Okay the VVIP's are all there...umm. from the left..Louis Vuitton's grandson(forgot his name!haha), Siti Nurhaliza, and the Kathy Lam(LV's general manager), the rest i dont know who..haha
Siti and Kathy(oh did i mention that Kathy Lum goes to the same church as i do?haha)
Siti posing..okok..."why so many pics of her?"cuz she's probably the biggest celeb that attended..haha

Again...
Ziana Zain..i think..haha..okay i'm really bad with local celebrities!haha..sorry!
Hans Isaac and err..haha..yess..i forgot her name too..i remembered it a while ago..hahas
Outside the store..

The trio!haha..from the left..Azalea, Ian and me!
The other trio!from the left..me..Daniel and Alya!
The whole gang..haha..yes all this was after the job was done..so we weren't slacking off! rajin tau!
Us infront of the store, which btw was only open to VIP's and invited guests only on that day..so we syok sendiri la..haha
We sent Azalea to her room in the Mandarin Oriental..(yes she had a room there)haha..and Ian tried out a few of the new collection's from LV..its obviously for women..but he tried it anyway..haha

SHOCKED!!!gahh!
The view from the room..thats the KL convention centre..nice eh?

haha...syok sendiri..(again)"living like a king"
"what would you do if one day you woke up with hair like that?"...thats what you'd do..haha
Ian and i took the train back from KLCC..and while waiting i was teaching Ian how to change a simple boring Dewan Bandaraya building into an artsy fartsy picture!
Artsy pic no.1

Artsy pic no.2

Well...thats about it..it was a really good experience..and i really thankful to Azalea for bringing me along for this event..I also thank God for opening my eyes to the things of the world..and seeing how unimportant and meaningless the world would be without Him.=)

Durian Overload!!

Hey!

the durian party was awesome!!!

haha..it was in red ginger at plaza Damansara.

they had finger food at first and then when everyone was seated they started briefing us about the whole event=)

they served 12 different types of durians in stages..and my goodness..i tell you..its really good!!

gaahhh...i can still taste it in me mouth!

the bestest of durians i tasted was the "Perak champion" haha...it was really sweet..but at the same time it had this bitter after taste!syok!haha

and also there's one that they call "ganja" and its this HUGE durian..which is like super meaty!crazy!and its really funny to see people in working attire eating durians with their bare hands and shouting for the durian "ganja! ganja! more ganja here!" hahah..man..before it started i so totally felt out cuz it looked like a corporate affair to me..and i was seriously feeling underdressed!..

haha..but then when the whole durian eating frenzy started..no one bothered about anything but their durians!..crazy..

this was only the starting..haha..look at the amount of durian seeds!!!gahh..

the infamous "Ganja" durian!..its so darn BIG!!!gahh!!..and seriously can get high eating this!everyone was kinda quiet before it came to eating this..after that..everybody was laughing and shouting..haha..dont do drugs boys and girls=)

HAHA...eat ME...eat ME...the durian is calling out to me...gahh~~

anyways..yes by now you know that i'm crazy about durians...haha..but yeah..i'm also exicited about tomorrow!haha...whats on tomorrow you ask? well..i'm helping my friend azalea out..she's working for Louis Vuitton KL..and got me a job as a photographer for their new store thats opening in KLCC!haha...whee..and we're gonna be using polaroid cameras!!cool eh?i mean its only one night..but i like! its good experience=) will definitely upload some pics from the event!celebs and famous people are gonna be there!haha..

PAAHHTAY!!

ermm..okay..i'm going to a party tonight..haha
guess what party is it?

DURIAN party!

haha..crazy..

i'm going with my parents..i'm just trying to imagine how it'll be like..haha

lets just hope i dont overload my self with durians and then die or something..

anyways..kenneth went to sydney yesterday..a bunch of us sent him off..

me,jan,sarah,manda,ian,darren and boss!

here are some pics=)

the fact that he's finally flying is sinking in..while all of us are eating mcD's..haha..(darren in the background there)

saying goodbye to cherie..and he was forced to say "I LOVE YOU" really loud infront of us..haha..aih..L.D.R(long distance relationship) i know how it feels like when you're parting with the one you love..

from the left:Jan, sarah, manda, boss, ian(behind), ken, darren and daniel.

okay..same bunch of ppl..i'm in it this time...and yess..i look stewpid..haha..oh well..

Ken getting prayed for before going off=)

haha.."leaving on a jet plane"..well we wish you all the best and we'll always be keeping you in prayer!=)

oh btw..cant wait to watch simpsons the movie!!!haha..

Gratitude

PRAISE GOD!!!
I just got my results and they were really good!haha..
i was litterally jumping with joy when i saw it..my dad came in the room and said "hey, your results are out, tsk tsk..terrrible lah"
then i was like shaking!haha..in my mind there was no way that i'd fail..tho there IS that slight doubt in my mind that i'd fail...scary..so i went to him and asked him about it and then he said.."terrible lah this time fail this fail that" but when he handed me the paper i couldnt believe my eyes!haha..
woot..!! okay to put it simply i got really good results and they were beyond my expectation!=)
hehe..
so yeah..i am brought back to the start of the sem when i asked God to really help me do well..and i'm really so grateful to Him that He has brought me through all this=)
and its true.."All things are possible with Christ"!

so yeah!All Glory to GOD!!=)

In the end everyone leaves..

Yes yes..its true..in the end everyone leaves...
going overseas to study..or to stay there permanently..

and recently i've come to realise that almost ALL my friends from the same cw has gone overseas to study..man..its kinda depressing..anyways..this coming monday will mark the day that kenneth will leave for Sydney, Australia..

Ken and i have been friends for quite sometime now..ermm..9-10 years?heh..cant remember..

and we had a sort of gathering yesterday with the remaining ones that're still here..

which is...Me, Ken, Jan, Amanda and Sze May(who is currently back for holidays)
we went to SOULed OUT in hartamas for dinner and then we went to centrepoint for ice cream and then back to Amanda's house for a short game of monopoly(haha..i know!)
When it was time to leave..there was this funny feeling in me..to see us saying goodbye to each other its like we'll all never meet again!haha..well it was kinda quiet then..

I guess this teaches us to really appreciate people who are around us even more..and not to take them for granted cuz time really does fly when you're having fun..=(

so here's the deal..Sze may will be gone by this thursday..kenneth, this monday and Amanda is planning to leave at the end of the year..HOH..which leaves me and jan here haha..man.."and in the end, there was two"

And from the looks of it alot of my other friends are planning to go overseas too..New Zealand, India etc..man..its gonna be soo different in a few years time..

life goes on i guess...okay smart..i've emo-fied myself...gahhhh!!!

nevermind..i shall enlighten your heart and mine as well with pictures i took from the gathering!!

posers!haha..

Sze may and me..haha...yes..we were all trying to be posers and super "yau yeng"

yes...do the altogether now!

HAHAHAHA..this picture speaks for itself!=)

ermm..the mr.devil thingy in ken's car..heh..

hah...gaya or not?haha...ok no need to answer that..haha..let me wallow in my own syok sendiri-ness =P

okay not so nice pic..haha..but roughly can see everyone..from the left: ken,sze may,manda, jan(half a head) and me!

FOOD!!this dish has a really funny name..but i forgot the full name..but its "Jerk something fish" HAHAHAH..jerk fish..ish..

Group picture take 1!*FAIL*

Group Picture take 2!!*FAIL*

Group picture take 3!*FAIL*

haha...okay the fourth attempt was the best la, so, yeah!=)

So yeah...anyways..Kenneth has been worrying about his results for quite some time now and last monday was when his results were released..i just wanna say that i'm very encouraged by the presistance and faith that he has in God to trust Him to help him in his studies..and he has always wanted his studies to be a living testimony for God..and i'm proud to say that he has indeed been a good testimony!and he got more than what he expected in the end when he learned to trust God!=)

So go forth Kenneth Chen to brave the new land that God has placed you in and all the best in your life and studies over there!!and thank you for being a really really great friend!=)

HAHAHA...funny la seriously...funny..=)

Work work work!

hey..
its been really busy nowadays..and i fear that things will just get even busier!
somehow in the midst of all this one can still find time to feel down..and i guess most of the time i blog cuz i get emo and all..sad la eh?well things happen in life..and everytime you think that its the worse that it can ever get..there's always something more to bring you down..
I guess it IS an endurance thing..you know..since i said i'd be clinging on to God for everything..and here it is, the opportunity to cling on to God..just when i asked for it..
I'm glad i guess..cuz i'll definitely learn so much..and grow more too.

"Act my age"
am i immature?well i guess in the middle of all this chaos and work..one has to find time to let go/ release yourself from all the tension and stress held up inside..so yeah..I am acting my age..haha..when i'm serious..i'm 21..when i'm stressed i'm 5...

"CS3"
I bought adobe creative suite CS3!!!hahaha...powerfull..every from photoshop to flash is in cs3 the latest versions!my laptop can still run these programs..but its okay only la performance wise..wait till i upgrade my pc!haha...core 2 duo..here i come..or maybe i'll just get a quad core processor..haha...

so many things will be happening this coming few weeks=) will be updating as soon as things happen i guess..

Be My Escape..

Recently there has been a tugging in my heart and a concious realisation to reach out to other ppl..and yes i know its just normal, being a Christian and wanting to reach out..but this time its serious..its time to change..its time to face my demons and let God into every single area of my life..those dark and dirty little corners..i'm not proud of it..

I need God to change me...

I need to HANG ON to God..

and let go of everything else and make Him the one thing that i rely on..

I've been trying so hard recently to get inspirations and ideas for my freelance projects and my company..and i realised that ALL of my very best work and inspirations come from God..and were at times where i simply let Him in and the rest is history...

so yeah...

even if this makes me lose everything that i have..its hard..its really really hard..

but Jesus,

Use me to reach out and be a blessing and a testimony for you.

"Be My Escape"- by Relient K

I've given up on giving up slowly,

I'm blending in so you wont even know me,

apart from this whole world that shares my fate

this one last bullet that you mention

is my one last shot at redemption

because i know to live you must give your life away

And I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity

and i've been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key

and i've been dying to get out

and that might be the death of me

and even though there's no way of knowing

where to go, I promise I'm going because

I gotta get outta here

I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake

I gotta get out of here

and I'm begging You,

I'm begging You to be my escape

I’m giving up on doing this alone now

Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how

He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there

And this life sentence that I’m serving

I admit that I’m every bit deserving

But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

And I've been housing all this doubt and insecurity
and i've been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
and i've been dying to get out
and that might be the death of me
and even though there's no way of knowing
where to go, I promise I'm going because

I gotta get outta here

Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake

I gotta get outta here

And I’m begging You, I’m begging You,

I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity

Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made

And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me

But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

I fought You for so long

I should have let You in

Oh how we regret those things we do

And all I was trying to do was save my own skin

But so were You

So were You